I’m back! And I’ve got some news.

Hi all! I’m so so so pleased to announce that I’m back and we are going to be having regularly posted blog posts!😱

So I should probably share with y’all why I was gone so long . . .

So back in June—you know when I disappeared off the face of the earth?—I was experiencing some extreme pain. It didn’t faze me since I’ve been dealing with chronic pain for the majority of my life. Anyways I was at my chiropractor’s office waiting for my appointment when I felt tugged toward a pamphlet.

My doctor has a wall full of pamphlets that describe different conditions and the key points of certain diseases and chronic things. I knew a gal back on Instagram who had Fibromyalgia and when I saw a pamphlet for it, I thought I’d look inside to see what she dealt with.

Imagine my surprise when it mirrored my entire life.

I read all the key points and symptoms and just sat there in shock. Blindly rapidly I wordlessly shoved the paper into my mother’s hands and asked her to read it. She was uncertain and wondering what the heck I was doing with it. But as she quickly skimmed through it at my serious look, she looked up at me and was like: “Woah. This is you.”

I asked my doctor if they had a test—which they do, to a point—and not an hour later I finally had a diagnosis after five years of coming in with near constant pain. Fibromyalgia.

It’s a two part test. Kim, one of the nurses, took me into another room and proceeded to prod me with a ton of weight. Normal peeps are supposed to be able to not hurt until around eight pounds of pressure in placed on specific pressure points around the body. A person with fibro will experience pain with minimal pressure. There are 18 pressure points they test and I had like 17 out of them be super painful.

The second part of the test are symptoms. There are about 8 major ones and I checked off on all of them.

My doctor looked at me and was like: “Well, I can say with certainty that you’ve got fibromyalgia.” It was both a ginormous relief and an emotional experience.

My doctor and the nurses who’ve been with me for five plus years were kinda like “Oh you make sense now!”. My body has always been stubborn and I’ve always come back in with pain that they expected to go away . . .

As soon as I got home I started to research into Fibro. And now after a few months of figuring out my body, going to the doctor, and taking supplements, I’m getting a bit better.

I’m by no means 100%. But I’m no longer debilitated every single day.

I’m looking forward to getting better and better. But I know that the road to health isn’t a straight upward line. It’s more like . . .

But I’m working toward getting better. Relying heavily on God and my family. I have more bad days then good ones right now, but I am having okay and good days! So we hold onto those during this trying time.

Finding out that not everyone deals with this pain was a big light bulb moment for me. It made me realize that I’m stronger than I think. And it made me accept that some days I just need to rest.

I’m finding the balance between pushing myself to boost my stamina and resting so that I won’t throw myself into a flare up. It’s hard, but I’ve got Jesus on my side. <3 I’m gonna get through this. And whatever you’re going through? You’ll get through it. You’ve got this and God’s got you, babe.

I’ll cut off this post here for now. I’m definitely gonna talk more about Fibro and how I’m treating it. And I’ll share my experience growing up with it. But know that I still believe that Jesus is a healer. He’s my healer. One day I know I’ll be pain free. But until then, I’m gonna use everything He’s given us to help me through these days. My miracle for now is Him helping me through the day.

And that’s beautiful.

I posted over on the website my October Writing update, so if you wanna go over there I chatted a bit about what I’ve been up to in that sphere.

‘Till next we meet.

~Tiffany Michele